No meditation of any substance would take place that morning and I normally ended up observing my distractors as they traveled from the large oak to the small oak and back again. I have become quite the observer when it comes to the surroundings of my house. As I speak, a small brown spider is creating an intricate web right outside my bedroom window. I saw him not to long ago, seemingly crawling around in midair, going round and round in circles stopping intermittently to stitch some piece of the masterpiece together. The web is being constructed between two bushes about 8 feet apart. I wonder how the very first strand was created? Did he leap from one bush to the other, or did he drag the silky thread through the grass and up the base of the bush?
A battle of life and death took place in the same vicinity earlier this afternoon. I black buzzing blur flew across my field of vision and I quickly turned my head to the left to see the flying object crash into the neighbor’s house and hit the ground. I approached cautiously for investigation and found what seemed to be a giant yellow jacket munching on a cicadas head. I don’t think I had ever seen anything more violent. I have read recently that bugs in general are notorious for their murderous habits. Apparently a female praying mantis is known to devour her male companion during copulation. I don’t know, just doesn’t seem quite fair or reasonable in my opinion.
I’m sure my neighbors think I’m quite strange half the time sitting there with my eyes closed and the other half wheeling around with my eyes in a daze looking around like some sort of hippie on drugs saying to himself, “Whoa, that tree is really trippin me out”. Well I’m not on drugs, that kind anyways, but to be honest the hippie statement is somewhat what I’m thinking as I stare up at the wooden wonders anchored and decorated. Life is quite amazing in my perspective and a simple outline of the tree against the sky happens to be both entertaining and beautiful. The intricacies of life really present in my front yard are so complicated that it is impossible for the normal mind to grasp. What I’m able to observe is but a fraction of what is actually occurring beneath my senses. Beneath my very nose are thousands of personal universes each working together and unified by a single life force which created and is driving the most complicated, random, chaotic, and yet perfectly synchronized sequence of events. I’m merely sitting back and enjoying the show.
To fill my readers in on some news a bit more normal than migrating caterpillars, I’m happy to say that my butt pain has diminished and has not reached the extreme pain that has occurred from time to time since my last entry. The reduction of pain has not come at a price however for I have been taking it extremely easy. All activities that seem to have created extreme pain have been avoided such as the standing frame and mat work. I’m contemplating whether or not I should try the FES bike. For those who may not know, the FES bike is a machine that stimulates my leg muscles to peddle a stationary bike. It’s been a good amount of time since I’ve done it and I was getting on the bike on a regular basis. The plan over this past weekend and this coming week was to stay off the standing frame and mostly focus on swimming since that seems to be the most effective exercise as far as avoiding pain is concerned. Swimming is also extremely good therapy. The swim experience today wasn’t too much fun due to the fact that the water heater was broken and the water temperature stood at a chilly 78°. I lasted for about 30 minutes and had to call it quits.
I may have to give into the standing frame soon. It has become quite routine to stand every day and the feeling is very rewarding. Along with the feeling of standing in general my lower back always tightens up and gives my spine some stability for the time being. It is very healthy for my body to stand so I somewhat feel like I’m falling apart by not doing it but a week or so of not standing shouldn’t hurt.
I’m supposed to see my spinal cord doctor next week. He’s probably just going to prescribe me some medicine but we’ll see.