I just had a conversation with my Dad that I’ve had many times before and always leaves me feeling frustrated and confused. We were talking about how simply consciously stating how we want to react to certain situations rather than giving in to a natural negative response has the power to change your reaction. For example, my Dad has a tendency to be rather mean to our dog so he began stating, “Be nice to Luke” when he feels like being mean and this results in a more positive response and the overall energy of the situation is better. I stated that I should say, “Be nice to Mom, be nice to Dad” when I feel like being mean and then he told me he would rather have me say, “I believe”.
Uh oh, here we go again. My Dad in no way accepts that I’m going to be like this in the future and firmly believes that one day I will be fully recovered. Some people may say this is an unhealthy inability to accept a situation but he believes this may be the only way to return to normal health. He then went on to tell me that maintaining positivity is not most important but convincing my subconscious I’m going to fully recover will ultimately decide the state of my body’s recovery.
Right now my belief system is based on the fact that I must fully accept the present moment in time while believing that the possibilities of the future are beyond limit. Therefore, it is completely possible my body will recover but focusing on this possibility distracts me from the only thing that matters, Right Now.
I constantly wonder if I possibly do not have enough faith in my recovery so therefore it will not happen. That recovery will never occur unless I fully accept the possibility of no recovery is nonexistent. Who has the strength to believe beyond a shadow of doubt that something is going to occur? Who has the strength to never let doubt sneak into the recesses of our brains?
I don’t want to live in a dream world, I just want to live. My most recent practice is involved with being gracious and thankful for the things in my life. I woke up this morning frustrated from lack of sleep after a long night of fluctuating body temperatures. As I lay their my back contemplating the day I began to list all that I am thankful and grateful for and I immediately began to feel better. I think the most important thing I can do right now is stay focused on my blessings and live for the possibilities of the imagination.
Dad, feel free to correct me on your stand on this issue and I will then clarify.