Many times in dealing with tough situations such as tragedy, a person must evolve in their approach to what they have been dealt. One must have the willpower to accept this evolution and continue to seek for the answers rather than getting stuck in a mindset that is ultimately destroying them.
When I was first injured, if you look back at my earliest writings, you can see that I had no doubt that I was not only going to walk again but I would run, jump and things would be exactly as they used to. I knew this in my heart and this image of my full recovery was what kept me going every day, telling myself when frustration occurred that it was only temporary and things would get better. Having no doubts about my recovery at the time was what I needed to do in order to survive and there was nothing wrong with my faith in recovery because I felt it in my heart and in my bones. No one could tell me different.
As time passed my recovery was slower than I could have possibly imagined but I continued to hold on to the firm belief that I would recover fully. Slowly frustration began to overwhelm me as every day I pushed and pushed in my rehab but could barely notice the effects of my work. Eventually I realized my firm belief in a full recovery was no longer resting on my heart. My conscience and subconscious were at war with each other, battling over doubt versus belief. After searching my soul I found that holding on so tightly to my faith in a full recovery was doing me more harm than good because rather than living in the moment I was waiting for a certain moment in time to be happy. From there my mindset evolved to the point in which I concluded that I just don’t know what exactly the future has in store for me. I then began to try and absorb myself in the present moment, knowing that as the seconds passed healing was taking place but where it would lead me I did not know.
My soul and mindset continues to evolve as I pass through each stage in my life contemplating what is the healthiest approach I should take to my present situation. Having beyond a doubt belief is not a bad mindset if in your heart this is what you truly believe and it is not hindering your ability to grow as a spirit. Even though I do not know if I will run and jump once again, I continue to hold on to firm beliefs for my future. I know that a good amount of recovery will take place, exactly how much I do not know. I also know that no matter what happens in my situation I’m going to live a beautiful and inspiring life.
I always ask myself, what is the best mindset I can create which will lead to my maximum potential for healing? My conclusion at the moment is that there is no one mindset which leads to miraculous healing. What is important is that the body, mind and spirit are in harmony with each other, working together, blending peacefully with the divine. I believe healing does come from the mind but this is not where healing begins. A balance of health begins with the perfect essence of spirit, which when consciously connected to balances the mind, which in turn balances the body. It is my belief that striving to achieve this balance has more healing potential then forcing myself to conform to a certain mindset of conscious belief.
So this is where my evolution stands at the moment. Thank you for taking part.