To all the MSN spaces people out there, you may or may not know that I have two web sites, this one and another one called ColinsOdyssey.com. I have always posted the same blog entries for both sites. Most of the people who read on the Odyssey site are people who are somehow connected with me in ways other than the Internet. Readers of the Odyssey site have no idea that my MSN spaces site exists. I just thought I would clear that up.
I wrote about my new aid in my last entry without asking his permission first but I didn’t really think much of it, that is until I was introducing him to someone and the subject of the pink bike was brought up. I believe the words were, “So you’re the guy with the pink bike”. I felt pretty bad as it looked like I was going around town blabbing about how my aid rides a pink bike. The next day I confessed to him that I have a web site and that I wrote about him and his pink bicycle. He wasn’t upset by it at all and he said it reminded him of an episode of Seinfeld. It seems someone is always saying something they shouldn’t in that show, especially Kramer and I quote, “You’re as pretty as the rest of them, you just need a nose job”.
The incident of my confession was not a big deal but it did remind me of my limitations concerning what I can and can’t write about. When I first started writing I made it a point to be very truthful and honest. I simply wrote about whatever was in my head at the time. Now however, I’m finding it hard to be completely honest about my life because many of the situations I go through should not be read by everyone. I really never know who may be reading. Even now, the majority of my emotions cannot be expressed. Sorry, but it looks like I’m only going to be able to convey a portion of who I am. Not that it’s possible to fully convey who I am anyways.
Life has been good lately. My aid and I continue to get along well and it seems that his situation is slowly being resolved as well by coming across my family and I. I continue to maintain my focus on my therapy making sure that each day I participate in some sort of activity which pushes me physically. I have also been focusing on my healing meditations more so than ever before, closing my eyes and visualizing the healing process whenever the chance arises. I mostly visualize my nervous system erupting in blue light as if a lightning bolt has struck my head charging my body with electricity. Most of my efforts has been focused on my upper body, being my chest, back, and arms. Much of the time while doing these meditations the muscles in my chest will begin to twitch slightly as well as my triceps at times. Lately, I feel an overall change occurring in my body. Strange tingling sensations are occurring in my legs, I have seen trace muscle movements which I’ve never seen before in areas of my legs, my left wrist has gotten much stronger as well as my arms, but mostly it’s just a feeling in my gut which I can’t explain.
I continue to go to rugby practice every Thursday night and I’m continually improving when it comes to my pushing skills. I am much faster than when I started this past October. The rest of the team is still pushing circles around me but I’m seeing the improvement which keeps me motivated to continue my efforts. We are actually getting very good turnouts and I’m thinking the team should have 10 or more players come next season.
The Adaptive Sport Adventure Program is hosting an event on March 18th at the Bobcats Arena. It will be an expo featuring demonstrations of quad rugby, power soccer, and hopefully basketball. I should be participating in both quad rugby and soccer. The expo goes from 1 p.m. to 2:30 p.m. and then the Bobcats play the Pistons at 7: 30 that night. ASAP is selling highly discounted tickets to the game that night which also include admission to the expo. It would have been nice if the expo was right before the game but the one o’clock slot was the only one available. Five dollars from each ticket sale will be donated to the ASAP program. So if you’d like to buy some cheap tickets to the bobcats game or would just like some more information let me know. Unfortunately, cheaper tickets for just the expo are not being sold, but if you do by a ticket to the game it would be great if you could make it to the expo as well.
The past couple of months, no matter what mental state I’m in I have been telling myself the statement, “this too shall pass”. Of course it makes perfect sense to say this when you are feeling down. To remind yourself that eventually you’ll feel better and whatever negative emotion you’re feeling will go away at some point. The statement however isn’t just referring to bad times but by saying “this too”, the statement refers to both good times and bad. Life goes through continuous cycles and there will be many ups and downs which cannot be avoided although people try perpetually to do so. In my recent times of high spirits I sometimes became aware while subconsciously talking to myself that I am wondering when the high times will become low again. When feeling good, I know eventually that good feeling will go away and this saddens and frustrates me. I then tell myself this too shall pass, which reminds me to not identify with any single moment in time whether it be good times or bad. There’s no use in getting caught up when good times will end or when bad times will be over because the cycle of life is uncontrollable and no matter how hard we try each moment will eventually be swept away in the breeze. Like an oak tree on a hilltop, we must simply let the seasons roll through as we remain grounded and rooted to the earth.