Sensing that I may be getting some new visitors this week I decided to give an introduction to my present life….
Since July 10th, 2004 my life has been a major transition. A transition from a life of normalcy and apparent challenges, to a whole new life where everyday I am presented with a tragic situation I never thought I would have to face. I broke my neck on that warm summer day in July, but protected by the tall trees and vast ridges of the Appalachian Mountains I survived to draw life’s breath once again. My battle with paralysis had begun, a journey which would lift my spirit and bring it crashing down all at the same time. An eye opening, earth shattering experience leaving crumbled remains amidst solid ground.
From the beginning each day was vague and unfamiliar because all I ever knew myself to be was gone but as horrible as that seems, I was given a chance to truly be aware of the true self which lay beneath. A self I never knew existed. The ups and downs have been treacherous but I’ve maintained steadfast on my path and with each passing day the reality of what had happened to me slowly sank in. It took two years for me to mentally combine my past life with the present one, merging my walking self with my present physical state. There are still days when I wake up wondering what dimension of reality I am lost in, but those days become fewer and fewer as I charge onwards.
A second major transition in life is now occurring where I’m reaching out for change so further growth can occur. I have worked hard to physically recover since my accident but several months ago I realized that I haven’t been working nearly hard enough and great potential layed at rest. Feeling stuck I decided that some changes needed to be made so my family and I began to seriously consider more aggressive approaches for recovery. A surgery in Portugal sounded promising but the risk seemed too high compared to the apparent effects. We then turned to the idea of aggressive rehabilitation in a professional setting, where I would be provided with a positive atmosphere and trained exercise specialists who could push me to my full potential.
So far I’ve tried two different programs, one in Atlanta and one in San Diego. My experiences clearly display that this type of aggressive rehabilitation is exactly what my body needs. I immediately realized that all my exercising was nothing compared to what I truly could accomplish and I’m slowly feeling my body come alive. I have a long road ahead of me and will most likely be recovering for the rest of my life, but I’m going to die knowing that I pushed my body to its full potential. I’m excited knowing that I’m headed somewhere. Somewhere which cannot be defined and it is definitely not a road one typically travels, but the light of the unknown is shining brightly in my eyes and I’m going to reach for it.