I thought there may be some way to prevent it from happening but, looks like at midnight it is going to be 2007. I’m sorry, but New Year’s just depresses me. It is not something I can quite explain. It’s just a feeling that comes over me at this time of the year. I love Christmas but with the constant rise of anticipation and heightened excitement until Christmas Day, there’s bound to be a downfall soon after. But despite these feelings, I have much to look forward to in the year 2007.
Things are slowly coming together here in Charlotte. As a starting point I met with Carolinas Integrative Health which began the first push to get the ball rolling. This then led me to my first acupuncture appointment which overall went well. As expected he had no experience with spinal cord injuries or the specific type of neuro acupuncture which I was doing in San Diego. Initially this was frustrating, but the places he chose for the needles created many sensations including warmth, tingling sensations, and overall relaxation. I believe acupuncture to be very important in maintaining and improving the overall energy balance within my system and getting these energies to circulate to the appropriate areas.
The integrative health appointment also led me to my first workout session with a sports oriented rehab facility. It’s pretty much a traditional therapeutic gym but they’re focus is primarily on sports related injuries such as ACL surgeries or shoulder issues. Once again these people have absolutely no experience with spinal cord injuries but in my mind this is positive because this erases any possibilities of preconceived notions of spinal cord injuries and what the possibilities are. The type of therapy I would like to undergo its not traditional and is based upon the belief that I can slowly but surely get better through exercise. I know, it seems like a very commonsense approach but you would be surprised at the mindset of more traditional spinal cord rehab centers.
The therapist I met with seemed very familiar to me and turns out she did my physical therapy when I had ACL surgery in December of 2001. I tred to give her an overall understanding of what I wanted to accomplish. Basically I want to be treated like an injured athlete, believing that every muscle in my body works and should be exercised accordingly. At first she thought they wouldn’t be able to provide the aggressive approach I was striving for but really all I need is a space on the floor, a mat or two, and a trainer willing to be creative and push the limits. We worked for a couple hours, just getting a feel for each other and going through some basic exercises. It was a good workout, but by the end it kind of felt like a tease, like I barely scratched the surface of exercising. However, my expectations were more so to simply give the trainer an idea of what I wanted to accomplish and discover if they were open to and up for the challenge. I feel like the trainers are very open-minded and more than willing to give it their all and see where it leads. The overall atmosphere of the gym seems positive, and I believe good things will come of it.
I also received an excellent Christmas gift from my insurance company, a power assist manual wheelchair. This is a manual wheelchair which I must propel with my arms but the push rims actually have a sensor on them which senses how much force I’m exerting. There are two separate motors in each wheel which engages and actually propels the chair forward depending on how strongly a push I exert. It’s kind of like a self-propelled lawnmower except it only goes when I push with my hands. I do not want you all to confuse this with a power chair because it’s far from it. Basically being in his chair will allow me to constantly strengthen my truck muscles and strengthen my upper body without harming my shoulders from overuse. In the near future I hope to be completely out of the power chair and only in my new power assist. It’s going to be a tough goal to reach but I can definitely see it happening.
Another ball I need to get rolling is finding a new nursing aid. The responsibility to find someone to handle my care probably weighs heaviest on my shoulders out of everything right now. The past several months my dad has been primarily responsible for my care and even though we have our rough times, it has once again become comfortable. Now I have to invite a stranger into my home and further invite them into the personal tasks I must accomplish every day. Finding an aid is a responsibility which I really have no motivation to accomplish right now, but I’m going to do it because I know I must. It looks like I’m going to be in Charlotte for at least a little while and getting a helping hand will be healthy for the entire family.
My urinary infection problems have stabilized. Right now I am at the point where I am maintaining a low level infection. In the past whenever I would start getting symptoms of a UTI it would always progress to the point of no return. The past two weeks now I have had initial symptoms of infection but it has yet to get worse. It’s actually kind of nice because I am able to tell when it’s time to drain my fluids because of bladder spasms. However, because of the spasms I tend to worry when I leave the house, thinking I may not be able to get a bathroom. My feeling in the matter is the longer I can stay off of antibiotics the better. Hopefully my body will eventually create natural antibodies and my immune system will strengthen.
Not much else is going on right now. I’m just trying to stay patient and go through the processes to get some kind of routine going. I’ve had more than enough time to relax and soak in my adventure, so now it’s time to create some more.
I hope everyone out there had a wonderful Christmas! Bring on 2007!