I have once again returned from another long journey to Austin, Texas to see Francis the healer. The two-day drive used to bother me and would frustrate me to the point where I wasn’t always sure that the trip was worth it. But with each consecutive trip to see Francis I further realize how important he is in my life on all possible levels including the physical impact I know he is having and will have on what is now a broken body.
It is truly amazing to me the power of healing energy I can feel during the healings. Once upon a time I was not sure if I could even feel what was taking place. But now the healings have become so powerful that it is undeniable that a healing energy is coursing through my veins. Monday I experienced the most powerful healings I’ve ever gotten. Francis says I am like a magnet now absorbing incredible amounts of energy, double the amount that I absorbed during my previous visit. With each time I visit Francis the energy is building off of the previous time, opening me up to embrace further healing.
The first night back here in Atlanta I woke up to the sensation of my legs literally sizzling, like hot fajitas coming out of the kitchen. An anxious feeling overcame me, desperately wanting to move my legs but not being able to. At the same time I could feel a burning throughout my trunk muscles and into my chest. Once again, these are all very exciting signs of my body coming to life. Yet I know that I must continue to be patient and not get caught up in too many expectations. I now know that I’m going to be healed but I can’t not know exactly when this is going to occur. But knowing that the time will come, there is no reason in getting all worked up about knowing exactly when major recovery is going to happen. I do know however, that I must continue to see Francis. He is the central key to my recovery.
Not only do my visits to Francis have effects on me physically but the spiritual effects are also immense. My faith in God, and in purpose and reason become more clear than ever. I realize I’m a perfect spirit experiencing this life with the purpose of growing closer to God. I further realize that there are no accidents and everything which we experience is part of a divine plan. My love for this life and everyone around me grows. I become more forgiving, more accepting, and less judgmental. I see the presence of God all around me and instead of looking at a person and only seeing flesh and bones, I see a perfect spirit also working through trials and tribulations, discovering the strengths they are capable of in the midst of their fears.
I have realized that you can always fall back on love. Releasing the control I feel I must have over people and over my life, I can love myself knowing that I’m doing the best that I can while fulfilling a higher purpose and experiencing what I’m supposed to experience. I can love everyone knowing that they also are doing the best they can and fulfilling their own purposes. Never should I feel hurt by the actions of others for in some way, shape or form they are helping me fulfill my purpose as well as I am helping fulfill theirs. By this I mean that we all have a role to fill in each other’s lives. Many times it is hard to understand what his role is or how we are supposed to act in accordance with this role but that is all part of the plan. Looking within ourselves and learning from each other. Finding a way to see past the material world around us, see past the emotional hurt and pain which feels so strong, and see past the fear attached to human nature and discover the love of God present inside and all around us.
It is my goal to love unconditionally. To love without expectations and without attachments to my own desires. I want to strip myself from the need of approval from others and discover that all the love I need can be found within myself. I honestly doubt I will ever reach that point. It is possible yes, but I can’t deny that I do wish to be loved. Yet even though the goal is lofty and seems unattainable, there is no harm in reaching for it. For I believe that is why we are here, to reach for what cannot be seen or heard. Only felt through some sort of premonition deep within ourselves that there is something large, magnificent and beautiful beyond anything we can imagine.
In the coming weeks I hope to update my readers and supporters of my newfound physical improvements. However if I find myself frustrated by the slow pace of recovery or none at all I shall remain faithful. Maybe to the outside world I am a nut with a hopeless dream, but I’m going to walk again.